…… and I feel completely worried and apprehensive about it. A week ‘glamping’, save for the first night in a hotel in York.
The kids have been so excited. They wrote their lists of things to take – marshmallows for s’mores, head torches for the forest – and even helped with the packing. (I’ve had to remind Alex a couple of times that it is glamping, so there will be no Wi-Fi for his tablet!)
Unlike two years ago, going on holiday now means taking both crutches and a wheelchair. I, perhaps stupidly, have not informed the campsite owners that I have a mobility difficulty – I am assuming that I will be able to get around and I know we have a toilet and bath in our tent, so that will help.
But the biggest reason why I feel apprehensive is because I worry about not getting the rest I need to be able to manage my multiple sclerosis. Don’t get me wrong, the idea of ‘getting back to nature’ is amazing – sitting around campfires, outdoor cooking, star-gazing – but it also means den building, exploring, bug- hunting. All the things I would love to do with the kids but now find difficult to due to my MS symptoms. Throw in some potentially changeable weather, including fatigue-inducing hot days, and the worry of ‘will I find it easy to stick to OMS?’, and that is why I am nervous.
Will I be able to nap?
Will I miss out on holiday fun due to not being able to join in?
Will Hubs end up doing all the child care because I struggle (leading me to feel guilty)?
Will I come back more shattered than before I went?
And, believe me, I am completely exhausted, the last few weeks have taken their toll. Work, school holidays, hot weather and personal stress have left me broken and needing a break.
I am really hoping that getting out of the house and away from mundane, every day tasks will provide me with the break that I desperately need and my husband and kids with the holiday that they want and deserve. Fingers crossed! I will be reporting back in a week or so (probably full of toasted marshmallows).